Take Me To Mars

Darkness ruled and filled the sky

On the day we said goodbye

After all that we’ve been through

This is all that we can do

All those days that’s filled by bliss

Whod’ve thought it ends like this

Be together ’till we die

All was broken by a lie

We can still do anything

But we won’t have something

Lovers who ended up as friends

This is how our story ends

I saw you, my heart beats fast

I don’t know how long i’ll last

I can’t smile when you are near

You promised once, you’ll always be here

What happened to those words we say?

Did it ended on that very day?

It hurts so much, it torns me apart

Still i want you on my stupid heart..

What makes a human special is his power to choose freely. Our world rotates by the choices we make. What we are now is the product of deciding. If i have this own free will, then why do i feel like i am tied to a string..They order me this, they order me that, and i haven’t felt the rewards of my hard work. I have followed every rules and never defied..yet even my love for a girl is selfishly misunderstood by others. I made my decision, can’t you respect that? If i despise your decision would you like that? I know my actions are sudden i understand that. But never should they dictate what i do in my life. What do you expect if your girl is far away, do you expect that i will see her everyday. Even if we meet every Saturday, would you still take that from me and block in my way? Damn you people who have shallow minds. Especially the ones who attack from behind. Someday somehow i will find a way. A revenge or two, hehe,  i will make you pay.

90 million people in the Philippines. Birth rates are high and famine engulfed the land. Lack of birth control? Lack of sex education? No family planning? We are doing something right? Yes we are, but we missed something big here. And i hope with my freshmen college mind i can give my point of view with this one.

Philippines has been suffering from overpopulation over decades already yet not a single Filipino seems to care at all. The number of people here in our land greatly affects the economy’s performance. There are a lot of things to mention with that statement but let’s just run over to the ’something big’ I mentioned earlier. This thing is called "Media". Recently, Gloria macapagal Arroyo stated that Media affects the ratings of her performance. The same is happening to the rate of population nowadays.

First off, advertisements. I’ve seen this Ad last Sunday while waiting for the boxing match of manny pacquiao..the commercial is promoting a shoe. What’s inside the Ad? A girl in bikini, crawling towards the shoe and making errotic movements. For crying out loud!! What’s the connection??? That’s not all! Since 90’s, lots of movies add scenes of couples making love to make their movies a hit. Commercial of coffee’s and still, the actor took off his shirt and walk towards the girl in bikini and posed to kiss each other. Food, drinks, cars, internet, newspaper, books…name it, and scenes of adultery is clearly available to each of them. Our country is controlled by the media, we depend on the media..Sadly, we are not so strict on this things. ADULTS ARE PROMOTING SEX TO MINOR VIEWERS, ESPECIALLY TEENAGERS.

Im not writing anymore, but think about it..i’ll leave the rest up to you..

I never thought i’d say this, but this is the first time i hated a sem-break.
No shit. Its true. With the shattered dreams and broken promises i feel like
i’ve climbed up the ladder too much and slipped. Falling down, hurting myself.
Shattering my soul. Why does it hurt to love? All this fairy tale crap doesnt
make sense anymore. Ive lost not once, but twice. And the second one was
the most fatal. Ive lost my senses. I dont have rhyme in my life anymore.
The geyser erupted, the glass overpoured. The egg yolk is now scattered.
Everything feels deformed. Fell down from heaven and felt the dirt of the
earth in my face.

No more of this love shit. My heart wants a vacation. Its his turn now.

Sem breaks over.

It’s all because of you,
I’m feeling sad and blue
You went away,
Now my life is just a rainy day and I love you so,
How much you’ll never know
You’ve gone away and left me lonely.

Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me
Another love so true,
That once turned all my gray skies blue
But you disappeared,
Now my eyes are filled with tears
And I’m wishing you were here
With me soaked with love all my thoughts of you
Now that you’re gone I just don’t know what to do
If only you were here,
You’d wash away my tears
The sun would shine,
Once again you’ll be mine all mine
But in reality, you and I will never be cos
You took your love away from me.

Chorus
Girl, I don’t know what I did to make you leave me
But what I do know is
That since you’ve been gone there’s such an emptiness inside,
I’m wishing you to come back to me.

If only you were here,
You’d wash away my tears
The sun would shine,
Once again you’ll be mine all mine
But in reality,
You and I will never be cos
You took your love away from me.
Oh — Baby you took your love away from me.

..For the last time! I told you! Ignoring doesn’t mean i dont love you! Its not like everyday i talk but give me a break for my grades just this once. Your understanding i know you can do it, but why make me feel insecure? why tell things that make me feel that i haven’t given you the love that you need. Forgetfulness oh fuck it, thats my worst side and i hate it. I might forget things and abuse it, but dont show me i must be the worst person who have it. Girl why cant you hold on, does this mean we dont belong? Telling the whole world ‘im sick and hanging on?’ Oh christ, i pray to him everyday. There is no need to say, i pray for you only, the best school you want, the best life you can own. I want to see your smile, i want to make you happy from the hardwork i am doing. Trust, yes, please trust me, im true although im flirty, i have never loved nobody, its just you and me baby. I understand how you feel, you want a hug that is real. You want a guy who is bright and be your mister right. Sorry, im just human, wish i have wings so i can fly, or wish that i can die, and be one with the sky so that you can see me and i’ll be with you day and night. Today i must express, i might not be the very best, i lack poetic thinggies and all of that stuff but hey, i tried, i guess. I know i am silent, but i burst with thoughts today, girl i love you, madly, deeply, no need to say more words everyday.

Signed

=(

xXbObXx

I.
your an icon of hate
your an icon of death and wretched fate
you always talk about love
and how it made you sick and numb
you always think about him
and how it ended without a happy ending
and so i clinched my fist
and i will start to talk about this because

<chorus kuno>
you will never
ever
ever
ever
understand
you will always
always
always
fall and try to stand
and here again
again and
again
inside my room you will
try to hide
and try to search for
your own sanctuary

II
your an icon of fools
who plays the game and break the rules
who tries to trick the game
by saying again and again his name
its rotting up your mind
but you dont care and cry again
and so i watched again
as you break your heart and would not listen

<chorus daw kuno>

sanctuary
sanctuary
sanctuary yeah

do you know? (do you know?)
where my sanctuary is? (sanctuary)
dont you know? (dont you know?)
my sanctuary is right…. by….. your….. side!!
oh fuck it.
cant you feel it?

<chorus napod>
<dayun prolong sanctuary>

LOL…wanna be composer… ("\(X_X)/") yeee

So this is what it feels like
Being paranoid, feeling alone
It just doesn’t feel right
When it feels your on your own

When what you think is a new start
New friends that you can trust
Makes you badly bleed your heart
Makes your whole soul break and rust

When you feel their hiding something
And you dont know what it is
When you cant think of anything
That made them treat you like this

When the once happy smiles turn
To a big portrait of depression
When the deafening silence burns
Your darkened mind to incineration

Someone speak to me! Hear me out.
Im not even asking for attention.
Just fill up this very great doubt
And the feeling of great rejection..

p.s i dont deserve this

Ladies and gentlemen please listen to this
My story and the girl that I really miss;
The lady that loves me and I love so much
A lady close to me yet I cannot touch

A lady I cant touch, yet I really trust
Intact, no matter what trials are with us;
A lady I cant touch, yet knows how I feel
Someone that I can share, a love that is real

this composition was made by me. please ask permission if your gonna use it. hehe. ..hayy..shet,

Greetings to all. the martian is back. its been a while since i created a new post for my blog, been estatic during the last couple of months with all the new things im experiencing. nothing naughty though. im too young for that and im like in a relationship so…yah. anyway, im still tapping my fingers in the keyboard thinking of a topic for this post. hmm..oh, got it, about friends. sounds gay? then the x button is in the upper right corner of your screen. go ahead and fuck urself. the second paragraph is long so you may go directly to the third one.

so friends, what are they? who are they? do you have one?…are you sure he/she deserves to be called one? as people are now used to socializing with others, they sometimes mistaken someone to be a friend, just because they talk to each other, laugh together and screw their grades and still smile together. look at their faces, smiling and flashing their sparkling eyes in front of you, going with you wherever you go and hold hands because they are close. sounds like a friend? i dont think so. i dont even call those people who are with me as friends. i call them classmates. and thats that. fake smiles and backstabbing, what do you expect? even when im with one of my classmates they say evil things about my other classmate behind their back. am i even sure if im not treated like that too? i can only count my friends. and im sure one is enough, yes i can trust this guy, he may be a muslim but even his deepest secrets are kept with me, same with mine, he keeps it and nothing else. back to the main topic are you even even thinking when you say the line ‘he is my friend’ to other people? one incident happened when my classmate brought his so-called friends along with our ride. what do you know, they even teased him, made fun of him, and pointed me out as someone special with malice. i swear i can break his neck that time, i dont deserve to be treated like that. i dont even know that asshole. as my classmate and i went out of the ride, he walked slowly bowing his head, ashamed of how his ‘friends’ treated him.

as for a short note on my rant. there are only a few people you can call friends. dont just call someone like that, call him a neighbour, a classmate, a guy i met somewhere in the street or somethin’ anything but friend unless he is someone who treats u fairly and u can trust. fuck those fake smiling bitches and assholes. dont call me a friend too.

(oh, friendster is another thing, call them ka-frenster. not anyone on your firend list is ur friend. byebye reader.)